Why cant I walk it off
Shake it off
I am closer to the edge then you will ever know.
I am winded and my race has so far to go
I stop
I want to quit
Give in
I look for the strength to finish and find a black hole
I find caches of issues I have not dealt with
Hidden Like weapons in a video game
Weapons I use to undo my self
I am wrapped in excuses
I step off the path
I sit still
I can feel the weight of a thousand sleepless nights in my core
Eyes swollen with tears not yet cried
Thousand unanswered dreams
I am the reason
Missed opportunities
I understand string theory
In dimensions of sadness
Underdeveloped limbs burdened with guilt
Seek strength in crystal glasses filled with ice cubes
Relief is evasive
I spill
I roll in my mess
It is all I know how to do
Words leak from me like I ate rotten chicken the night before
Thought is slower
A balloon that deflates over time
Like will to try something new
The world comes alive with sun
I sink deeper into the darkness of my own creation
A cycle of self destruction
Energy to continue depletes faster than I know how to manufacture it
Suicide is a dog chasing its tail coming to the conclusion that it can't be caught and stopping
6 comments:
Keep chasing that tail Bri Guy!!!
Swear all the darkness is out of my system...lol Now we will see happy writing filed with butterflies and other such pretty things
Brian Zoolander
Five fingers against one should do the trick......Nah man just kidding.
Watch the Twins you will be fine...
Dude, grab a nice glass or bottle of wine, relax and think about how mind boggling massive the universe is and how small and insignificant we and our problems really are.
Think of all the new "strange" in your future.
I should be on IM a lot more after this week.....I miss you brother;)
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