Wednesday, January 10, 2007


Well three weeks ago my book became available for sale and some interesting things have happened. One it has sold better then I have expected. And two if has startled the shit out of a lot of people. The sales have been a much unanticipated reward but the backlash from it was something that I did not expect. I have had lots of positive praise on it but I guess like all things in life it is the negative that stays with you. I have had lots of people call me a monster, state that I should be on a watch list, or that they are embarrassed for me for being so open and graphic about my life.

All things that took me by surprise but then I noticed, I tend to be two different people and that people who know me from my writing would not recognize me in person and that people who know me in person would not recognize me from my writing. That was kind of profound for me. Why can I be open on here and in print but not to those people closest to me?

For the detractors who call me a monster and ask me if I am ashamed of what I have written I simply say that I didn't have a choice. To hold it would have been the end of me. My life folding in on itself. These words and pages are the steam vents in my volcano that keep a catastrophic eruption from happening. They are the pit crew that repairs my self destruction. This is my doctor treating a leprosy of ethics.

For those of you who are interested here is the controversy of my life....Gagging on the Wishes


Megsta said...

I am such a slacker... Borders right? As of this moment my schedule is completely open tomorrow so I may need to spend the day reading your monsterous work of art!!!

Brian in Mpls said...

It is online online till feb 15th but you can get it at amazon or barnes and And you and everybody who is linked on this blog is thanked in the introduction:)

Say Rah! said...

get out! so like, we're all famous?

hehe. congrats on the praise and criticism bri - it only comes on the heels of success.

Rocketstar said...

"I have had lots of people call me a monster, state that I should be on a watch list,..."
--- Fuck those people.

"Why can I be open on here and in print but not to those people closest to me?"
-- I think this is true for most people. Writing removes some of the uneasy in person emotional B.S.

Congrats on all of your hard work and dedication man, this is a great accomplishment.

lauren said...

I second Sarah's comment. You are strong enough to take the criticism... and then you'll write something nasty about the critics in your next book. :)

Missliss378 said...

Sounds like it has been a long journey for you and not an easy one. Of course you are more open when you write vs. with people closest to you. That's just how it is for most people. If they can't appreciate you and your hard work, then they aren't really friends then, are they? Congrats Brian! You should be very proud of yourself and your accomplishments!

Anonymous said...

I agree with everything Melissa said. Be proud and feel good.

You can't and will never please everyone including the harshest of critics, yourself.

R and yes I'm still fabulous

Matthew Anderson said... wrote a book? Bad ass!