Tuesday, March 20, 2007

The chicken in the egg

I have been struggling constantly for the last two years with this hopeless feeling that I can't get around this inertia force that is in front of me. This feeling of hopelessness has lead to a compounding sense of apathy. I just feel stuck in this station of despair that is my life. Like a man wearing clothes sized for a child. (granted my life isn't all bad, there are parts of it that are actually better then they have ever been)

I watched a little bit of the discovery channel last night. The showed a chicken inside of an egg inside of an incubator. The chicken was x-rayed daily to show the growth of the embryo inside the egg. I loved it. Although on the surface the egg never really changed there was all this growth inside.

I feel like I have been in an egg for the last three years. While on the surface nothing has changed I have been quietly incubating getting ready to hatch on the other side of this inertia sometime in April of next year.

4 comments:

Thomas said...

You need Christ, man...I'm just shittin' ya. I wish you the best in getting out of that funk. Speaking of which, listening to 70's funk typically puts me in a better frame.

Rocketstar said...

Nice analogy man. Now all you need to do is get Brian 2.0 back on track and chnage that shell ;o)

Mags said...

I think you have a pretty shell.

Perhaps you need some of my special eggs..as seen on my WW today.

Seriously-I know what it's like to be in a long funk, and I feel for you...just looking within and knowing you need change is a HUGE step...

Megsta said...

What's April?